hi.

Ive been feeling fucking drained lately. mentally, physically, emotionally. in between completing assignments, shaking off a number of issues which have been continuously plaguing me and the usual chaos.. head feels as if itll go go ka-fucking-boom any second.
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its ironic that when I finally decide to whip my life into shape my world does this sudden 360turn, making it utterly impossible to even stand my ground let alone kill habits or followthrough on my vows. Im trying not to let everything thats been going on discourage me, cause for some reason Ive suddenly got my heartset on improving, healing in every way possible. blogging has been the very last thing on my mind right now but dont fret, I shall eventually do a proper update on say, TuesdayNight? from visiting a disabledhome to losttrust to pushing through 40hours of nosleep at points; alot has been going on. dont give up on me just yet loves(; updates soon.
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hey.

from a second persons perspective, the last week may have seemed no different than any other, but I truly believe something inside me has altered on a large scale. Ive somewhat reached this point in my life where Ive learned to stop striving to fix relationships that do not deserve to be reignited. its either Im too tired of fighting so hard for things like gettingover Mysteryboy, or this recent blatent nonchalance is legit. anyway, updates here we go (:

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15/6/2009
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attended PrivateMathTuition at shalene's, and left no less than 10minutes upon reaching home;

.. for dinner at Kopitiam with sueanne amoigeram, calista, and tija strawberry bigspenderr. retreated home at midnight. it was a disaterously emotional night after, went to bed feeling like utter crap(and no fool, dont assume it was cause I saw you!).
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16/6/2009
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the principal +classteacher rung my 'rents the day before, so brushed off the emotional talk forced onto me in the midst of the day. the lasttime I got called into his office I gavein, and have had a great sense of love and respect for my principal since but ohmygawd, now only do I sense the FORCED compassion he strived to fucking inject into me in attempts of.. I dont know lah. Im just beyond glad my 'rents have my back(mom even YELLING at my classteacher for not having 'phone ettiqette haha) as they are fullyaware of so&so's rotten attempts to harvest information/ force me to admit to shit I didnt do. at times like this I appreciate my 'rents even more than I already do.
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17/6/2009- my 17th birthdayyyy bitches ;D
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tija strawberry bigspenderr cameover at 11pm;

armed with an ahdorable slice of cake for me to blow the candles in my boxers at midnight, and with hugs.
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promptly after gettingoff the phone with darrenlok and adenauer, tija had an asthma attack! o.o rushed to Assuntahospital and everything was thankfully fine in the end- found it hilarious how I ended up at a HOSPITAL at 3am on my BIRTHDAY tho, haha. she sleptover and I went to bed feeling all mushy&happy, whatwith all the sweet birthday wishes at 6am. skippedschool(as I have done EVERYBIRTHDAY since standard1 ;o) and sleptin, till sueanne cameover and woke us up at 9am.
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had dimsum at OldTown,

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and napped strewn all over the basement couches till 11am. setout to MidV during the evening, and watched 'Drag Me To Hell.' had dinner at esquirekitchen and rushed home early so my babybrothers wouldnt be forced to stayup past their bedtime waiting for my return.

1st half of my 17th birthday gift. my heart is aching waiting for my Gucci!
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cut cake with the fam;

.. and the darlings left after midnight. it was a helluva simplebirthday but I didnt have any real plans, despite the majority of people I know somewhat expecting me to go all out, go crazy for some reason. blargh, puhlease(; I wanted a simple, love-filled day and I got it. plus the once-a-year-feeling where youre buzzing with the undescribable mixture of warmth, hope, and anxiousness? more than enough to go off on! of freezingfines, personal translators, endless hugs &hoodies♥
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18/6/2009
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despite having a sufficient amount of sleep the nightbefore, I was asleep practically ALL DAY LONG. I slept the entire 1st period off, through 3rd period, flatonmyface in the library the entire lastperiod(and snored so loud it was caught on video for the FOURTH time this year haha), the entire journey home from school, for 3hours right after coming home from school, and while watching telly after waking up from my nap I fell asleep- again! felt like a fucking PIG omgawd -_-
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19/6/2009
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school consisted of freeperiod after freeperiod YAWN. sueanne amoigeram visited me in school at 11am and spent the last couplve periods with her and a big bunchve people, killing time in the icecold classroom chatting till the lastbell went off. shared (evil)fishandchips at Flirt'n'Feed and had a drink at AC before going back to sueanne's around 2pm. spontaniously decided on sleepingover, and was DYING cause I felt naked without my belongings/cellphone as the stupid battery died! :|

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fortold yet another sleepless night so napped for 2hours, before setting out for dinner with tekkin nikkid at Ikea(where my amoi blew her last 10smackeroons on meatballs;P ) stoned at Hartamas, and later SouledOut with nikkid's friends where I was bored outtve my brains, and restless without my baby cellphone, sob! I swear my thumbs were literally itching to text. went back to stayover at nikkid's in Sierramas, bumping into this ginormous python on the roadside alongtheway, eugh. Yumcha'd at 4am, and slept bunked together at 6am.

when nikkids desk is left untouched for 1month..

FUCKING PUTRID MAGGOTS TAKEOVER ERGHHH

solution?

BURN em mothafuckers ;D hahahaha

of icky urinewater, throwneggs, cherryplans, &crouched runaway preperations♥
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20/6/2009
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wokeup at 8am to nikkids alarm -_- was so hungry I contemplated running outta the house with carkeys but decided to cook brekkie instead.

sueanne and I, dont even know how to cook MAGGIMEE so it was quite a feat! couldnt bring myself to brave my fear of the stove so sueanne fried the eggs instead, fucking hilarious ;P waited for bryanC to come and in the midst of the crazy jam onthewayhome, my daddys alfaromeo stops RIGHT SMACK INFRONTVE bryans car- what are the odds mygawd?! sueanne and I ducked for dearlife till he was outta sight hahah.
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RUSHED LIKE CRAZY to get dressed &reached Shokolart, Montkiara around 4pm for my tiny 17th Bday Tea.

shalene my missy.

chocolate satay HAHA

nikkid + gilagirl thru thick &thin

cally my BABE.

it was tres lastminute so 3very important darlings couldnt attend :( but it went okay, it was a quiet dessertdate with my closet knit of darlings(: if only I had more of an appetite tho! the idiot waiter who couldnt fathom a single word of english irritated the shit outtve me, I handed him my creditcard and he said TWICE, that they didnt accept my card there despite my 'rents ringing beforehand to doublecheck they did. when mom started yelling the manager gave us a 10% discount claiming I handed them an ' International Dance Club ' -bloody cicakshit :/ but whatev. deconstructed with the help of longg, hot showers and sueanne went back before midnight. was up till 5am. of differentworlds, dirtyboys, coverlines &limauice repetitions♥
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21/6/2009
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HAPPY DADDYS DAY, daddy (:

Im far from fitting the characteristics of an idealdaughter, but you accept me anyway. I dontknow whether the silence will ever fade, but I hope to god you know I love you with all my heart. oneday daddy, Ill show you. Ill show you that everything Ive ever worked hard for, everything Im working hard towards, is to make you proud. oneday you will not be ashamed or dissapointed in me daddy, I promise. you will forever be the person I lookup to most in my life.
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chatted to Maison thruought sundayschool and he somehow convinced me to take part in the visit to some home nextweek. my role in the thing is to write an official article for my church's newspapers and argh, was planning to duckout! but its hello disabledpeople nextweek I guess. as long as maisons there(with his guitar &the potatosalad hes making me) it should go okay. had Japanese for lunch, and the boys and I gave him his gifts later in the evening. kept to my vow and stayed home for daddys sake.

random. FUCKING AHDORABLE ERASERS WHICH MAKE ME SO HAPPY.

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... got called into the principals office again today -_- I wonder when he'll stop fretting over me the way he does? and whether things'll ever regain its balance. have got my 40page overdue MoralFolio to complete, as well as my ArtProject so am bracing myself for longnights hoarded over my strewnbooks and more stress-attacks! grr. on normterms Im capable of taking on so much more, but hopefully Ill keep my composure amogst the overdue work and everythingelse. goodbyeeee people (:
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&& I said goodbye to you;
goodbye to everything that I knew
you were the one I loved;
the one thing that I tried to hold on to♥

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so Im officially SEVENTEEN today!
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it seriously blows my fucking mind thinking back to the way my world was a year ago! I had a completely different circle of friends, looked+acted vastly different and had yet to experience a shitload of things. the memories made, the lessons learned.. Ive grown alot since turning manis16 and though I never wouldve imagined being where I am in life right now, I never have and never will be ashamed of everything I stand for today. despite being scared, I lookforward to everything thats coming my way and ohmygawd, seeing as how the lastyears been I cant even imagine what the next year in my life will bring! .. life at seventeen here we come (:

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the next fewdays are going to be utterly tattered, unplanned messes as always but when have I not been worth the wait? ;) till then loves.
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hey.

I cannot even begin to digest the fact that school is restarting tomorrow. the very thought of being compelled to put a halt to all the plans&routines is fucking depressing. I may adore school but, mm. anyway, updatesss(;
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9/6/2009
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wokeup early(fucking earliest Ive wokenup these hols, was pretty proud of myself;P) around noon, and met cally darling in Bangsar. caughtup over lunch at Marmalade,

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had icecream at baskinrobbins after getting our eyebrows done,

chocolatechipcookiedough

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.. &decided to get pedicures at my fav manipadi shop, Kukubar.


french pediiii's. mine's on the right.
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yknow, me and an old BFF of mine used to get mani/pedis on a such a frequent basis lastyear. alot may have changed since then, but its tres dissapointing how I hardly make time to pamper myself nowadays:/ bought slices of cake from Delicious for mom, and was home by 6pm. was supposed to go out again with cally at 10pm but was exhausted. talked to clarence and vegitated infrontve the telly, buried under bags of keropok till konging at 5am. of jampi-casting rabbits, wrongly lit cigs, faux rempits &psycho cabbies♥
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10/6/2009
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chaotically emotional day. blame it on the hormones or the numerous issues I found myself suddenly aware of and entangled in, but I was sobbing like a baby for hours on end. Ive gone through SO much over the years, the wreck of a state I was in surprised even me. as per usual Im not going into details on things as personal as this, but all Im going to say is; I wish I didnt seethrough the fake facades & acidlies the people I used to trust the most in my life was throwing my way so easily. it has always taken alot before I let someone in so to have discovered what I discovered, fucking shattered my heart.
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11/6/2009
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happy 19th, darren lok(: its funny how after all weve been through I dont have a picture of us.
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bummed the day away before sueanne amoigeram(who was previously away for pangkor with her fam for abit) picks me up around 8pm. we restock on cigs, and I lug my bigass pink velvet bag filled to the brim with stuff to her place. we take showers blabla, and headout to Yumcha with adenaur and markian at Kopitiam later at night. we were chitchatting for so long we ended up being the last ones there, with the bhangra workers waiting impatiently to closeshop till 1.30am haha.
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promptly after reaching home, we headover to tekkin nikkid's.



bryan chan.

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didnt sleep for a second allnight long. a certain something happened at 4am, but never will the secret escape our lips(; of powerful pinky promises, awkard+ hilariously moving monstrosities, first ketuls &language barriers♥ sueanne, bryran, gray and I left tekkin's around 8am.
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12/6/2009
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the four of us had brekkie at McD's where we were faced with a fucking racist cashier(who's ass got bitten by karma when she gave us extra RM20 change HAHA) and was back at sueanne's by 11.30am. I showered, and rushed like crazy to meet calista(who was fresh back from Indon) at AC as promised while sueanne stayed home.


bumped into keith, vincent etc before going to calista's for lunch.


calista love
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went back to sueanne's around 5pm. changed, and napped for a petty 2hours only to wakeup wishing we hadnt napped as we felt worse than ever as soon as our eyes reopened. was supposed to yumcha but neither of us posessed the mood or appetite to, so decided against it in the end, resting in our pyjammies instead.


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we shower, and headout to tekkin nikkid's onceagain at 1-ish am. the night goesby on a repetitive but happier note, and we're up all night again. of manis-as-fuck tictacs, heartbreaking stories, redwine &uncalled for dramatic pauses♥ left around noon.




gray.


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13/6/2009
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we hastily shower upon reaching sueanne's as we only had 10mins to get dressed. sueanne's dad takes us out for brekkie nearby and sueanne and I go over to my place after. was DAMN FUCK STRUNGOUT but couldnt sleep or reveal how our bodies were dying, as my fam+sueanne leave for Pavillion to shop for my Bday gift minutes after reaching home. daddy and the boys leave earlier, so had plenty of time for mom, sueanne and I to bond(: at the end of the day I was left with a choice;-
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buy a cheap 1.2K Coach hobo that was soso/ anything under 1.5K
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wait a few months for the 2.8K Gucci hobo Id been craving for.
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ended up choosing to wait. as heartwrenching as it was Id rather wait than to settle for something I didnt really want, sigh! :/ mom and I shared cigs and a frap at CoffeeBean before heading home at 5pm. of newfound love+respect for mom, impossible signboards, 3kg losses, faux techno tunes &red cheeks♥ took longggg showers and mygawd, by night sueanne and I were walking carcrashes o.o chose our health over everything by declining offers to club/drink, and slept at 11pm. by that point, I was running on absolutely NO SLEEP FOR FORTYTHREE HOURS &NO FOOD FOR 2DAYS.
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14/6/2009(today)
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fighting to sleep the nightbefore was a sheer battle. wokeup at 8am, and attended Sundayschool in jeans, vans, and with no makeup on. the fam went for the usual Sundaylunch while I joined a snoring sueanne in the guestroom till 3pm. sueanne left in the evening, and auntyivy+ fam came over soon after. spent the day aiding my hoarse throat and babysitting babytania. I seriously wonder how Im going to manage properly answering the typical " How'd your hols go? " question tomorrow o.o imagine trying to explain the last 2weeks if you were me? haha. but fuckkit. its going to be difficult as usual, getting back into routine but I always manage(: MY 17TH BIRTHDAY IS IN 3DAYS! ;D hee. goodniiiight people.
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no matter what gets in my way;
as long as theres still life in me
no matter what remember;
you know I'll always come for you♥

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hey.

where do I even begin? the last week has been nothing short of pure chaos, and I have adored every millisecond. its going to be a helluva update so dont hold your breath, loves (;
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30/5/2009
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hastily got my hair done at SS2, and I loathed the initial outcome of it so much, that I SPAT my chewinggum into the namecard the salon owner handed to me infrontve everyone. just because Im Eurasian, this hairdresser bitched about me in mandarin assuming I wouldnt comprehend shit so she DESERVED IT. rushed to calista's, and got dolled up together(: then cally and waikit came, and cally was sucha doll for helping me fix my 'fakeeyelash dilemma'! LYbabe
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reached SunwayResortHotel ay 8.30pm for Sri KL's Charity Dinner 2009.


cally love

table seventeeeeen. my fav number(:

I had a dress MALFUNCTION, so this was my reaction when tijas date texted saying he had a safetypin! haha

aaron ng, gabriel wong

kavin my hubbie in class HAHHAA

tiffany baby, tija strawberry bigspenderr

gorg natliew

gary kang

zue yi

chermaine, zueyi, me, esther, yee leng

madeline serangga, me, kellie aunntie, tija, calista

alia putri

tekkin my nikkid

kellie chin, my aunnnntie

whoops

faris, whom I still owe a wax ;P



bestforlast. MY DARLINGS WHOM I LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART, calista & tija

clarence my chickenson. ask him who his date was that night ;) HMM.
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left around midnight, and headed to Barce after. was with cally, calista, clarence, brandonkoh, sam, zhengwei etc (: of spilleddrinks && jealousyspells. was too beat to go home so stayed the night at calistas. baked cupcakes, showered, and konged at 5am.


because the bestpart of my nights are you, C.
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31/5/2009
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wokeup miraculously early at 9am, our limbs aching.

hello gila naomi in calistas peejays! HAHAHAHA.

went to yumcha around 5pm at tanjung, then AC. rents picked me up, and droveby our oldhouse on the way home. sueanne amoigeram(whos fresh back from singapore) reaches my place around 9pm and we gossip, eat and smoke the nightaway ;D it sucks cicakballs how one of my bestfriends doesnt live in the same country as I do, so whenev shes down and lives with me, we make the best memories hands fucking down.
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1/6/2009
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dragged ourselves off the guestroombed at 4pm. had sausages and eggs for brekkie, and went to HartamasSquare with lewis.




the things weve been through mister!

eeeevil pizza.
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in the midst of our convo, sueanne throws me a look of sheer terror indicating she needed to go to the loo. on our way there, sueanne FALLS AND FAINTS. O.O it was fucking unexpected and I had a goddamn heartattack omgawd! was home early by 9.30pm. satisfied our Ramliburger craving with daddy around midnight;D then zhengwei and jeyue calls, and we yumcha'd at Canaicafe before moving on to JH's place. got home at 5.15am in a horrid state- dontknow what I wouldve done if my amoi didnt takecare of me.
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2/6/2009
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wokeup and bummed what was left of the evening away(imitating loser exboyfs COUGH!),


GUESS WHO ;O
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.. before going to Justin's for a drinkingsession around 11pm.



hello justin looi


Yumcha'd with cassidy at Devi'sCorner, and was surprisingly back at JH's again for a SECOND round of drinking. was home by 7am. of stuckwindows, fucking ATM machines, dares, &badscenes♥
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3/6/2009
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wokeup at 5pm. headed to MidV a couplve hours later and had dinner at EsquireKitchen.




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having been utterly restless, we leave for Barce literally half an hour after reaching home with zhengwei, nigel, jeyue etc. was supposed to go for a drinkingsession with cassidy and justin but was already in the backseat so couldnt. yumcha'd nearby, and stayed the night at a friend's place. of race games, blackbeadyeyes && almosts ruined by disgusting wolves♥
*clubbing pics with sueanne!
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4/6/2009
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because my cellphone batt totally DIED on me, only learnt cassidy had come all the way to pick us up at 6am the next morning. felt fucking rotten. so cassidy &justin if youre reading this, Im truly sorry! ;( only got home at 10am, so slept like piglets till bloody 9pm that night. nikkid and mingda come to pick us up at 2am, and we head to tekkin nikkid's in Sierramas after being forced to some dodgy nightmarket for a bit. couldnt comprehend a FRACTION of 'MyBestFriendsGirl' as we were all too stoned, but watched it before going home at 6.30am. of nailpolish, tetekbesar rempits &taylorswift ballads♥
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5/6/2009
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I wokeup at 2am and got lectured by the 'rents for going out allnight everyfuckingnight and sleeping allday. couldnt be bothered so went back to sleep after, only properly wakingup at 6pm.
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Yumcha'd at CanaiCafe with jiarong and shaun yap;



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adenaur joined us, and sueanne and I tookup willys ajak for a drinkingsession at SS17. was with ade, willy, nj, mark ian, etc and the bothve us had a tres goodtime(: was home happy and tipsy by 7am. of cologne escapes, tuak, hidden cigs, false caterpillars &cute pieces of shit♥
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6/6/2009
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wokeup at 7pm. we get dressed, and meetup with derrick, stanley, and eventually clarence and zhouwei at Naeb in Pyramid around 10.30pm.
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we head into empty Barce to drink,




stanley

clarennnnce


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... to MOS an hour or so later;

lima belas tahun -_-

michael eric.

darryl

vinisha



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... and back into Barce at 2am to meet another bunch.

zhengwei my steven

was so tipsy by the end of the night I fell thrice, and it hurt like a bitch :/ Yumcha'd at CanaiCafe and crashed at patrick's for abit before heading home at 6am.
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7/6/2009
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wokeup at 6.30pm. while having our routine smoke out on the patio, sueanne falls BUTTFIRST into my pond ;P laughed till I was red in the face haha.
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left for dinner a few hours later at Kimgary's, Pyramid with adenaur and Nj.



BFF charmbracelets

I heart my PierreCardin sneaks
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the 4of us watched 'Terminator4' and yumcha'd at StationOne with tan and mark ian before heading home at 3am. sueanne and I had a cig with my mom as soon as we reached. we ate dinner, and was ahmazingly STILL hungry so ordered McDs at 5am. devoured our food and watched 'Tart' before konging at godforsaken 9am. of bellies, boytoy frenzies, locked yellowcardoors &papayas♥


fucking classic zitcream &glasses. McDs at 5am!
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8/6/2009(today)
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.... its 1:34am and technically the 9th, but you loves should be used to my anal blogformats by now ;P the bothve us wokeup late in the evening as usual, but sueanne left straight after dinner for Pangkor so wont be seeing her till friday. it feels so odd for her to not be living with me anymore omg! ;S tonights the FIRST night outtve the whole week Ive stayed in, and the change is admittedly pretty damn refreshing. am clueless on what the next few days'll bring but I NEVER do, so hmm. I owe cally and clarence a phonecall so should get going- I hope everyones having as much fun as I am these hols ;) TURNING SEVENTEEN ON THE 17TH! ;D goodnight people.
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when you take,
you take the very best of me♥

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p/s: someone looked fucking fat in her blackdress on charityyy ;O whoops!
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hello.

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22/5/2009
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was beyond nervous for Math paper1! my never-ending struggle with Math dates all the way back to Standard2, so have accepted the fact that Math and I.. just dont get along-_- couldnt be arsed to change outta uniform so went to AC straight after lastbell. had lunch with tija strawberry bigspenderr, calista, sam and zhengwei+ his weird friends, then spontaneously agreed on going over to zhengweis after. bought KFC and the four of us watched 'Shes Just Not That Into You.' was home by 7pm. talked to cally, clarence till 10pm and planned to sleep early, but ethanbaby pops in and I end up berbonding with him as usual. randomchatter ;
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me: how long is it overdue?
ethanbaby: 3months. how jiejie, HOW?! *look of panic translates all over his face*
me: baby, dont worry! Ill help you fix it. but Im curious lah, what were you PLANNING on doing about it?
ethanbaby: *with completely serious face&tone* my plan was to bring it to school tomorrow, leave it in my classmates bag, RUN and make like dunno.
me: *bursts out laughing* omgawd baby are you serious?! youre just like me. DIE LAH DIE.
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23/5/2009
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couldnt help but reminisce back to exactly 1year ago. jason kok khai san, you dont even live in the same country now and we put each other through so damn much, but. how much we've learned, how much we've grown respectively since, mygawshh!

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anywayy,
ATTENDED. SCHOOL. ON. A. SATURDAY.
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initially planned to drag my ass outta bed at 4am, but only managed to at 5am. hastily revised, and ethanbaby+daddy dropped me to school. yknow, 2months ago I regarded daddy being my ride to school as nothing special- but 'funny' how its turned into a somewhat luxury now that Im forced to sit on the SriSedaya van. Historypapers were sheer killers.
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went home early. cleanedup, relaxed for a bit, and got dressed. asked mom for a ride, but she suggested I take a cab cause she was 'lazy.' couldnt ask daddy cause he was napping. enraged, I punch in 3cab numbers but no cab was available. I tell mom, and what does she do? SHE ASKS ME TO WALK TO THE MAINROAD TO HAIL A CAB. didnt think she was serious up until she asked my maid to walk me. what FUCKING mother chooses computer games over her daughter lah:/ fucking stormed outta the house in a bitter rage.
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was hommme by 10pm. from knocked-newspapers to 'sexay'baldmen, I had funnnn♥ Bangsars been my utmost fav place to shop since forever and the retail therapy did me alot of good. talked to clarence, and died on my bed at 2-ish am.
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24/5/2009
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maison temaned me throughout sundayschool (: the fam and I had lunch at TGIF, then to DigitalMall(yawn much!). ahdorable baby Tania came over to visit about half an hour after we got home, but as much as I missed her, my head hurt too bad to get outta bed. catnapped, and wokeup when baby Tania banged down screaming, " naoooomi! I need say goodbye. kiss please? *waits till I kiss her cheek* okay, thank you. byebye! " damn cute lah omgawd;P went to bed at 5am.
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25/5/2009
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skipped school as the papers scheduled for the day werent subjects I was taking for SPM. slept-in till 3pm(oink!) and bummed the remainder of the day away like a zombehh. while onthephone to cally at 3am, the sound of a door slamming echoes in the hallway and automatically assuming it was mom, I rush outside hoping to share cigs with her only to meet ethanbabys groggy face instead. refusing to go back to sleep, he temans he while I piggedout on latenightsnacks. he ends up bunking in my room, and we knock off at 4-ish am.
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CLICK ;D! say hello to overdue vids of me being typical;

.. what 4hour busrides do to you- Japan '08.

.. lazyday at home with ethanbaby(1).

.. lazyday at home with ethanbaby(2)

..lazyday at home with ethanbaby(3)
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26/5/2009
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skipped school again for the same reason, so seeing as I was bored shitless at home I decided to shop. daddy refused to give me a ride when he came back for lunch('rents dont seem to give a shit about me nowadays weyh seriously :/) so was forced onceagain to get a cab. was onthephone when the cab pulled out infrontve my driveway so got dressed in a recordbreaking FIVE MINUTES ;P lewis calls and temans me throughout the ride there, and I reach MidV around 1pm.
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met up with weijun for lunch at Kimgarys,


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.. and shopped till 4pm by myself, succesfully accomplishing my shopping goals. as much as I treasure shopping with my babes, have always enjoyed shopping alone once in awhile (: am just that sortve person I guess, hmm. talked to clarence and konged a little after midnight.

today's. raaandom.
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27/5/2009
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spent a total of 3periods bitching about ' prostitues with badeyeliner & flying achis ' with hanis in the library, felt evil haha. lunch served today almost caused shellymermaid and I to puke cause yes, it was THAT putrid :/ sat for my Moral paper and am keeping my fingers crossed for an A1! heart was literally in my THROAT towards the last 5mins of the day but only my darlinggs know what Im talking about- all Im revealing here is that my math teacher is a FOOL (: haha. talked to clarence(whom I delivered throat-relieving lemon sweets to in the midst of the day cause hes got a cough;D) and slept early.
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28/5/2009
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HAPPY SEXAY TUJUHBELAS-th, shivani boobpixie (:

&& HAPPY LAPANBELAS-th, sean metalundies (:

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all 3Biology papers got me stressed like craaaaazy. was concentrating so hard, a certain unnamed classmate of mine somehow made my blood boil. his nose was stuck and I could hear EVERY SQUEAKY BREATH HE TOOK from where I was seated. I could no longer withstand it at onepoint, so I raised my hand and shouted " teacher I need to say something to -insertnamehere-. ASK HIM TO STOP BREATHING SO LOUD, TO BLOODY BLOW HIS NOSE PLEASE. " -ended up moving my stuff to the back of class, grr. was out the door by 7pm for;
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sean metalundies' 18th bday party.




warren chan.

yew wing lembugila.


me, natalie loo, dionne.
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felt so good catching up with faces I havent seen in ages♥ made it a point to be home early before 11pm, as tuition was cancelled earlier and was freaking out. fought with clarence onthephone, revised math solutions, and went to bed fucking emo(continuous listening to taylor swift+ james morrison ballads have the power to alter your entire mood, no shit) by 2am.
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29/5/2009
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against all odds and doubts, Math paper2 went pretty damn well! Im far from scoring stellar results but omgawd, to be able to understand and solve equation after equation like everyone else, INSTEAD of givingup and sleeping half an hour into the 2 and a 1/2 hour paper felt so fucking good. plus the end of that paper marked the OFFICIAL END TO MIDTERMS ;D. had lunch with tija, sam, calista+her friends at FlirtnFeed afterschool.
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bummed around the house, then watched " NightAtTheMuseum2" at OU with cally and waikit later at night. remember *cough* the fattie, cally? HAHAHA. was home by 1.30am.




cally and I. I heart my vansss ;D
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... the month ahead looks pretty promising. CharityDinner'09 tomorrow night so am looking forward to dollingup with my darlings, sueanne amoigerams coming down from singapore to live with me again on sunday, for a month this time! and am turning sexay seventeen on the 17th ;D lifes good, but if only my heart wasnt aching this fucking bad, what a contrast :/ mm anyway. happy holidays people, goodnight (:
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And now that I'm sittin' here thinkin' it through;
I've never been anywhere as cold, as you♥

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p/s: I knew better than to trust someone new with my already fragile heart after darren. but then you came along, with your prettywords, prettyeyes, prettypromises; boy. I wanted to believe youd be the one to save me, but I never gave us a chance to truly discover what we couldve been. Im sorry. please dont leave.
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hello.

for the past week or so, Ive miraculously reformed. my routines have become monotonous and the chaos-scale has dramatically dropped, leaving my days dull. Ive admittedly vowed to cut down on my vigorous nightsout and put a complete hault to a fraction of my dirtyhabits, but.. mm. anyway, updates here we go!
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12/5/2009
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in school, I did something tres horrid to someone on purpose- it left me feeling unbelievably satisfied the restve the day, and I'll never regret it. enjoy the 'gift' when you open your bag, you fugly BITCH(; celebrated TeachersDay so everyone gathered in the greathall. at one point, when all the teachers sang some song on stage I went "omgawd everyones singing except mr.nathan weyh" and calista goes " no lahhh, his lips are just too black to see. he IS singing, just look more closely! " fucking hilarious;P regretted not bringing our cams to camwhore cause the performances were a yawn.
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but randompics from class;

imran monkeyboyy

tija strawberrybigspenderr, glued to eachothers hip and wouldnt have it any other way(:
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13/5/2009
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wokeup at godforsaken 7am. it was so early in the morning the absolute lastthing I cared about was my appearance! metup with tija strawberrybigspender and calista.
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met at empty AC,


' behbehbeh-bruises, cover her.. ' fucking mystery how I attained this bruise mygawd. but calista pointedout how it resembles JackSkeleton from NightmareBeforeChristmas ;P

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.. and settled for cheapskate brekkie in the BubbleTeaShop as nothing else was open. remember our escapeplan, darlings? HAHAHAHA.

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hung around at AC waiting for sam after, and was at Pyramid a little before noon.

makeupless & couldnt care less. watched 'I Love You, Man' and it was soso. calista mentioned a certainsomeones name a NANOSECOND after the happyending and it was a downright slap in the face, as nostalgia bloody tookover and got me into emomode:( had dinner at SushiGroove, and tija followed me home at 4.30pm. totally strayed from the initial objective of her comingover tho, as it was all japanese creampuffs+ cigarettes+ darkchocolate+ chitchat from then on.
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.. but we eventually got our BM lisan project done, hoorah ;D

its been YEARS I swear, since either of us bothered to do homework so it was such an accomplishment! she left around 9pm, and I konged after talking to clarence at 11pm.
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15/5/2009
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wokeup an hour earlier to put the finishing touches on me&tijas lisan project. felt sick like a bitch and shouldve skipped school, but made a grave mistake by dismissing it. suffered the consequences at school- I FELT LIKE CICAKCRAP ALL DAY LONG. asked daddy to take me home early but as usual he was too busy, le sigh:/ went to AC afterschool with farahA, herfriend, and imran monkeyboyy. tija and calista came later on and we devoured our usual Indomee (:
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fever got worse when I got home, and I napped promptly after showering till 7pm. mom bought me bubbletea, sushi& creampuffs to make me feel better(: was supposed to go the doctors, but I was like, "mom what if the doctor asks me to stick out my tongue to check my throat? daddy'll see my piercing and I'll DIE!" and she laughed her ass off- was too lazy to go btw, so didnt in the end. talked to cally and clarence, and watched telly till 4am.
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.. guess who saved my wreck-of-day by giving me this card? HMM.
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16/4/2009 + 17/5/2009
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STAYED HOME ALL FUCKING WEEKEND. loatheloatheLOATHE being sick.
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on sunday, shalene darlingg and jacob itchyballs were my entertainment thruought sundayschool (: signed up to helpout nextyear- and I wonder whether Ill regret it later on? went to Ou with daddy and the boys and had lunch at FishnChips- a totally refreshing change from the ever-so-routine japanese kay. nabbed some stuff from Forever21 and was home by 4pm. was fucking knackered so neglected my cellphone and bunked at ethanbabys.
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18/5/2009
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sortve had a tiff with clarence the nightbefore, so snuck-in to his class first thing in the morning, surprising him with a KitKatChunkyBar under his desk to cheer him up. was bombarded with demands from teachers to handin undone homework all day long- all my slacking off has FINALLY caughtup to me and is biting me in the ass, man! so was in bitchfit mode allday- sorry everyone(except the junior whom got one helluva shouting from me for almost knocking into me after lastbell) who was made collateral damage :( WAS SO FUCKING STRESSED I brokedown on the way home.
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ethanbaby ahdorably helped to order pizza to calm me down, and took SIX TORTUROUS HOURS to finish my Artwork, from 7pm- 1.30am. talked to weijun and clarence, and had no strength to finish the last few bits of my work, so fell asleep while mom was on my bedroomfloor helping me finishup. honestly dont know what Id do without her♥!.
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19/5/2009
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wokeup extra early to study BM. head felt numb from all the stress, as if it was some sortve stress-hangover, so my hair and brain was this disarrayed mess all day long. Midterms officially began -_- sat for my BM papers and gave it all I got, punching in 800+ words cause Im determined to get my A1. talked to cally and clarence till 1.30am.
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I still cant even begin to comprehend how you had the HEART to go ahead and hurt me like that. as much as I miss you, Im beginning to wonder whether everyone was RIGHT about you?
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I hate...
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20/5/2009
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slept thru the first 3periods, and hanis and I wentaround school looking for entertainment as the papers scheduled for the day were subjects we dropped. I endedup consuming a total of 5biscuits, 2pizza slices, 3nuggets and tehice- justlikethat ;P was so full I could hardly breathe properly doing my Englishpapers! wrote a sappy tragic lovestory for my essays, and left a surprise note for a certainsomeone on his desk so he'd read it firstthing in the morning after lastbell(: talked to jiarong, and zombied infrontve the telly till 3am.
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21/4/2009
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the papers scheduled for the day were subjects I dropped, so wasnt compelled to go to school at friggin all. sleptin, and bummed about, failing to study like I promised myself I would:/ later at night, cally, waikit and I spontaniously;
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.. went to the OUG pasarmalam! ;D hahaha.

cally. what would I do without you babe? loves much!

my firsttime eating LokLok.

waikit. muscletanks should be illegal, sorreh ;P


mini somethings I left for my littlebrothers on their nighstand.
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its been a good YEAR since Ive been to a PasarMalam, and altho I missed nothing about its typical overstuffyness and crowd, I rellished the experience. Yumcha 'd at StevensCorner, and was home early at 10pm.
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... its close to midnight now and Im talking to the usual people online. Midterms, hurryup and end already please! ;s goodnight people, best of luck to those who're sitting for exams(:


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You take another line;
And you feel fine
this time♥

p/s: everything about you, makes me want to leave you.
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hi.

I, currently feel impeccably drained. the last week or so may have been pretty monochrome, but the underlying-old issues, the pent-up stress buried beneath everything has been killing me. anyway tho. updates here we go (:
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3/5/2009
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maison joined me as a fellow TeachersHelper, so having him around as opposed to flyingsolo like the week before was a helluva relief- I honestly DO enjoy watching over the tiny tikes from the Standard2 class, but having someone just lifted whatev weight that came with the responsibility I guess (: the restve the day consisted of engulfing in McDs, and gas-station-runs to buy waffles ;P talked to michael and clarence till 2am.
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4/5/2009
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ClassPhotoDay. seeing as were all seniors now and are finally granted the privilage of DESIGNING our own pages in the yearbooks, it didnt matter how we looked in the photos as itd never be displayed anywhere public. despite this however, us vainpans put extracare into our appearance ;P near-candid pics attained from christabel's cam;
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the usual scene.
l-r; tija strawberrybigspenderr, me, sean siumai, khairi nostrils, imran monkeyboy.



bigspenderr, your Maoni Hotposh loves you!


have seriously lost count at the amountve pics/vidoes of me caught sleeping in class kay -_-

le 5Beta familia.
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ordered McDs while still in the van so itd have already arrived when I get home ;X went for PrivateMathTuition at shalenes, ate the maggigoreng daddy bought for me, and talked to jiarong and clarence till 1am. Im sorry for hurting you jiarong:( darrenloks call woke me up at 4am so was exhausted emotionally and physically by the time I went back to bed at 5ish am.
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5/5/2009
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HAPPY SEXY TUJUHBELAS-th, khairi skinneh nostrils (:

I laugh the hardest with you everysingleday and vow to CONTINUE practising my gangstamalay/ attempts on annialaiting you with pinknikebottles &books ;D have a good one, rocketship!
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pretty mundane day, yawn. talked to clarence and jiarong till 3am.
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6/5/2009
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pontenged a few classes, killing time with tija and farahA in the library. calista darling got us Indomee delivered HEEHEE ;D temaned clarence(who was walking around with a broken broom btw) for the last 2periods, walking around like idiots trying to find a nice, cold place only settling towards the last halfhour of school. danesh, a form3 SriSedaya-an in my van surprisingly initiated a convo(after weeks of pure silence) so chatted with him all the way home.
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had to recline zhengweis offer for a much needed drinkingsession cause of math tuition -____- mom was in Indonesia on business, and daddy plain forgot, so was forced to WALK to tuition that evening. it may be 5mins away but bloodyhell, do YOU like walking? ;/ this oldman who lives a streetaway spotted me, and LECTURED me the whole way there. sure it was nice of him to be so concerned about my safety but, freaky much! accidentally fellasleep when I put ethanbaby to bed, so ended up bunking at his room, neglecting my cellphone.
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Im not going to say any more than "I regret TRYING to help you, good-bloody-luck from here on out" as I am sick and tired of the entire ordeal.
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8/5/2009
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was supposed to follow shalene to MinesWonderland(as her mom somehow had the entireplace BOOKEDOUT) but had school so.. sigh, sorry babe:( clarence bought me brekkie from McDs and I found it ubermanis of him. ate McDs the SECONDTIME when hanis and natliew ordered, and it left me feeling like a grotesque pig :X they ordered during Bio so I literally RAN outtve the class telling teacher I had ' a female problem,' DEVOURED my burger, and RAN back to class, haha. talked to calista and clarence till 1am.
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9/5/2009
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wokeup with a fever but dismissed it. felt like cicakcrap so was restless the entireday! went to AC afterschool with tija, calista, jean-ni and sam where we devoured shared plates of Indomee ;D initially planned to go home after that, but calista suggested we go shopping, so spontaniously agreed. sam and I killedtime at zhengwei's as I had to wait for calistas cheerpractice to end. was feeling so horrible and sleepy, I fell asleep on the couch.
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wokeup with a shock.
the MAID screams "zhengwei pergi mana?!!" as the room was empty.
I groggily make my way to his kitchen, giving his grandma making tea a shock.
I blurt numerous apologies, still groggy.
halfway on the stairs to his room, I almost collide with a man carrying a LADDER ABOVE HIS HEAD, jumping in shock.
.. bloody MINI HEARTATTACKS okay. made zhengwei SWEAR he wouldnt leave me alone in his house ever again, regardless of whether or not Im sleeping! -_-
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had dinner at calista's, and the bothve us wentaround Taipan and SS15 hunting with sam, but to no avail :( was home by 11.30pm and was exhausted. forgot my HOUSEKEYS, my cellphone battery DIED, and the doorbell wasnt working so was locked outtve my house! tried to climb over my gate but couldnt. yelled my lungs out but nobody heard me, so I resorted to borrowing a neighbours cellphone to call my mom. fucking.. UQAUSDHGDHGC. was burning with stress and fever when I entered the house, but talking to clarence till 12.30am seriously calmed me down.
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9/5/2009
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overslept so rushed through my morning shower/routine. went to shalenes for PrivateMathTuition at 1pm, and chilled there abit before leaving to Bangsar with her. got our eyebrows done together before saying our goodbyes.
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met simson at Delicious around 4pm ;

.. and caughtup with him throughout the day. was in a RUSH to find an angklelengthdress so went into practically every store. thankyou Mr.Fantastic, for being so patient and sucha bighelp♥ got home at 7pm, and rushed to get dressed.
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tija picked me up at 9-ish pm, and was at RitzCarlton, KL for calista's sister's 18th birthday.



cinaman wallpaper ;) *insidething* HAHAHA

joanne



darlinggggs!

*more pics to come
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shortdresses were against the dresscode, so felt TRES weird in my anklelength dress all night ><>
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10/5/2009(yesterday)
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HAPPY MOTHERS DAY.

I truly appreciate everything youve done, and given to me. Im so happy we're so close now and your advice and opinion trumps everyone else's. thankyou, for accepting me for all my faults and for supporting who I am. I may not show it as often as I should but, Im sorry. I love you mom.
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it was my last sunday spent as a TeachersHelper :(


.. spot tinyme &maison amongst the sea of ahdorable kids!
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wanted to make brekkie-in-bed for mom but overslept ;S went to Jaya33 and ate Japanese for lunch, stubbornly eating my yummy MnMFrosty(with extra MnMs thanks to me being extra*cough*nice to the waiter) right after, making me feel SO DAMN STUFFED I thought I was going to EXPLODE. was dragged to an AlfaRomeo showcase, and planned to be extranice to mom, but by the time I wokeup from my nap she had already left to Indonesia for business again- fucking sad. talked to clarence, read, and konged at 2.30am.
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... cant be arsed to elaborate much on today, so its keypoints is as follows: 1)woke up in a room smelling like friedchicken(causing me to freakout trying to think where the hell it was coming from o.o), 2)made a sandwhich for clarence to cheer him up ;D 3)my darlings and I were in extrabitchy-mode allday & 4)I bloody WALKED TO TUITION, again. getting extra lazehhh now, mm. goodbye people (:

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I'm so scared that I'll never
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you keep breaking me in♥

p/s: my temporary fix?
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hey.

its 12:43pm and Im tres amazed that Im here blogging, instead of followingsuit on my usual Saturdaymorning sleep-in(which includes me snoring, wrapped under my covers till LAAAATE in the afternoon) haha. before graduating onto the updates tho; X
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HAPPY SEXY TUJUHBELAS-th, shelly mermaid (:

youve been here for me thru all the drama thats ignited for the past year and a half now, and I couldnt be more thankful for having you as such a close friend. I love you very much, mermaid, have a good one!
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27/4/2009
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overslept because my cellphone batt died in the middle of the night, making it impossible for my alarm to go off or any calls to come through. instead of wakingup at 9am for brekkie with calista, I only crawled outta bed at noon! was several hours late, so hastily took off and was at AC by 12.30pm. met clarence, and john lee etc.
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calista and I spontaniously had brunch at FlirtNFeed, where we were joined by a few familiar faces.


calista mrs.chillisauce ;)
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followed the boys to FTZ for abit, and we were both reminded of our tendency to edge away from dating boys who's traits include an undisputable dedication for gaming ;P FUCKED my diet and settled my craving for Chickenrice after! ;D the initial plan was to catch a movie at Pyramid but we were all too lazy so calista, sam and I headed to zhengwei's. watched 'ComingSoon' and 'SexDrive.'
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OINK OINK




on the roof
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went to calista's for dinner, and was home by 9.30pm. was unbelievably drained for some reason so konged early right after my shower. its sweet of you to call all the way from Aussie jasonK, but I still refuse to believe I wont get charged if I pickup your calls >.<
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28/4/2009
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ethanbaby wokeup with Chickenpox in the morning! poorthing was covered from headtotoe in camomile lotion after his visit to the hospital :( tija strawberry bigspenderr and I had brekkie delivered to us as usual and I had my siumai ;D tija had pizza and was so tempted to take a bite but tahaned, even when tija kept asking me to finish the lastslice! left it on the table for the school cleaners to enjoy instead. devoured THREE mangoes to prevent me from breaking my diet like the day before, only to discover mangoes are the WORST fruit to consume after -_- talked to jiarong before konging at 1am.
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29/4/2009
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the airconds in class WERENT.FUCKING.WORKING. everyone was grumpy and frustrated, me included. grr!
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hanis and natliew were locked in the library afterlunch- felt so bad for them but it was honestly quite hilarious ;P pontenged 3periods, chatting and bitching with hanis behind bookshelves in the library. the 11yearold AHNOYING FUCK in the van was oddly quiet the entire vanride home and only discovered why after he got off- cause hes scared of me ;O Im thrilled to know this tho, as Ive never been more disgusted with a kid in my life. he repeatedly beat another primaryschoolkid's head with his SHOE once okay! am planning to MAKESURE the brat doesnt say anything for the restve the year ;)
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30/4/2009
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had a minibreakdown in the middle of the day, but thankyou tija strawberry bigspenderr, calista and farahA for being there for me♥so much for thinking I was stronger. spent lastperiod with faris in the library and am looking forward to our ___date HAHAHA. went to Pyramid afterschool with calista, and it was the firsttime I went to a mall in my schooluniform EVER o.o failed at finding the right gifts for our friends but had fun eating sushi ;D was in school uniform so didnt think wed be kacau'd, but alas, lalabengs proved me wrong, forcing me to use the usual " sorry we're taken" line. -_-
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was back at my place by 7pm. bummed about, got dressed, and headed to MOS.

the usual pre-nightout room mess


C darling



nich ng- WHO OWES ME BIGTIME, haha

shermaine


yummy cassidy

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memorable mo's: man+poledancer moments hahaha, sending an emo text to a certainsomeone I regret sending with all my heart, old run-ins, getting texts from my MOSstalker(who fucking texts me saying "I see you prettygirl.. " EVERYTIME Ive gone to MOS for the last 2months) again, fatfavors, avoiding an octopus-like guy who calista and I think looks like the RED BABY ON THE CIGARETTE BOXES && playing my favorite game ;).
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Yumcha'd at Canaicafe, then calista, jeyue, sam and I headed to zhengweis. fell in and outta sleep watching 'Gia.' was home by 6am, and calista and I KONGED an hour or so later. sorry btw jiarong, dan and azim for not spending time with yall.
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1/5/2009
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we both managed to drag ourselves outta the guestroombed at 10.30am to Oldtown for;

.. DIMSUM ;D ;D ;D
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omgawd, was so happy I got my dimsum okay! was too lazy to get a cab so thankgawd for mom who joined us. bumped into my primaryschool BFF, vanessa, and bummed+napped the restve the day away when we got home as the weather was horrid. setout at 6pm to settle our maggigoreng craving but FORGOT it was labourday- retreated home dissapointed the cafe nearby was closed :( ohwells, atleast we got some freshair and gave the people some 'TV' *insidething* kan, babe? HAHA. ate our waffles and calista left at 8-ish pm. showered, and watched telly till konging at 2am.
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.. just got off the phone with sukim pampadam, 'rents are coming home with KFC soon and am starving! Im so angry with myself for continuously breaking my NoCarb Diet but fuckit, will get back on track no matter what :/ ahhh. goodbyyye people (:
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Don't go out tonight,
Baby can't you see,
What is happening to you,
What is happening?♥

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hey.

my hunger pangs are literally echoing as I type this. sure Ive felt progressively healthier eversince I initiated my Diet a week or so ago but am fucking tempted to break the 'no eating after 6pm' rule Ive set for myself right about now. mm whatev. shall get to the updates(:
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20/4/2009- 23/4/2009
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SriKL was so tiedup in SportsDay preperation teachers gaveup on trying to steer our attention away onto anything other than sports, haha. Id usually do a followup daily update but the whole week felt as if it sung the same monotous routine! suffered being unable to consume anything for the first fewdays as my Tonguepiercing was still new, so it was HELLO 2litres of water + 4-5cups of icecubes a day, and BYEBYE latenightphonecalls/singing on toppve my lungs/being my usual chatty self :(
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24/4/2009
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talked to jasonkok(yes, me and the exboyf made peace) before konging a little after midnight, but darrenloks call woke me up so hardly got any sleep. when I wasnt skipping numerous classes in school, I sataround planning our post-SPM roadtrip with hanis, natliew and shellymermaid in class. have VOWED to pack KNIVES in the boot justincase it morphes into a classic teenage-roadtrip-turned-horrormovie thing ;P


went to AC after the lastbell, and seeing as my inseperable tija strawberry bigspenderr was away at the stadium for godknows how long, me and her caughtup over cigs and a bowl of Indomee till 3pm (: sorry for leaving early, dan! zayed dropped me back at school, and waited for calista to finish her cheerpractice before sam dropped me and her back to her place. ethanbaby surprises me by texting midway;
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ethanbaby: hi ;D
me: hi baby! how was your day? (:
ethanbaby: okay :S
me: had fun anot? I just finished lunch with Tija, are you home yet? Im going to miss you tonight youknow! are you going to miss your big sister?
ethanbaby: yes :(
me: aww. I'll call around 8pm okay? Sms if anything, you know Im here. better eat your lunch and have your shower, no lying on the floor ah! Bye baby, I love you very much (:
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watched telly over lunch, had our 'lion' *insidething showers, and bitched about chubbycheeked cunts we knew && the samespecies of boys who still have our hearts infused onto their sleeves.


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jeyue and zhengwei picked us up around 9pm for zhengwei's. sorry again jiarong for not being able to go follow you to Montkiara :X


calista darlingg

jessica ting
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a bunchve people cameover and it was all cigs on the roof, alcohol and blaring techno for a couplve hours. the bothve us were gone but thankyou mr.unmentionable for taking care of me(especially when I obtained that bigass BONJOL from WALKING into an opendoor wtf) and keeping me warm (: konged at 2-ish am, and ended up spending the night on zhengweis couches. was snoring as usual I guess, as I wokeup to some idiot sticking a 'BreatheRight' plaster on my nose -_-
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25/4/2009
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the boys woke us up at 5.30am. dragged our butts back to calista's and showered+got dressed. dropped calista at school for Sportsday as she had cheer(sorry again babe for being too tired to watch you perform ;[) and went for bak kut teh with sam, jeyue and zhengwei for brekkie. got back at 8.30am and slipped into zhengweis hee-UGE shorts(as my denim ones were being a bitch) and him and I caughtup on lost sleep for a few hours.
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calista and nicol woke me up at noon, and the three of us went back to calista's to chill.

calistas brothers hard at work- spot the diff, haha
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nicol went home, and zhengwei picked the bothve us up for lunch at Oldtownwhitecoffee. the weather was UNBEARABLY HOT, omgawd. had coffee, toast and cigs while discussing dating history ;P waited for the boys to get up from sleep;

.. and I couldnt help but vandalize ;D
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was craving dessert so sam, calista and I went to Pyramid just to eat at YogurBerry ;P wait for the day me and her start our " NaomiCalista VeryYummmehhh " franchise man ;) was supposed to watch movie with jiarong but was too tired too, seriously felt tres rotten for having to cancel on so many outings with him :( was hommmme by 7.30pm. showered, bummedabout, and ignored my cellphone COMPLETELY, bunking with ethanbabyy in his room at 11pm while the 'rents went drinking.
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26/4/2009(today)
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woke up at 8am. had to sit for a compulsary talk while the ParentsTeachers day went on, so was relieved from Teacher'sHelperDuties this week. my sundayschool teacher told my mom " I often have to struggle to get her attention in class but Naomi is a lovely, mature girl! " and when mom told me that I laughed my ass off- seriously cant recall the lasttime any of my teachers said such goodthings about me haha. went for lunch with the fam at JayaNoodleHouse and resistedtemptation, avoiding carbs. followed suit on groceryshopping and was home by 1pm.
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... its 10:32pm now and I slept the entire day off. no school tomorrow so am going either going Bangsar/movie with calista/cally, havent properly planned anything yet. am eating papaya and onthephone to jason(whos back in aussie already) so should gooooooo. have got a truckloadve pics I have yet to receive so will upload em here when I do. goodbyeeeeee people (:
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lips that need no introduction;
now whos the greater sin?♥

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p/s: so sick of pretending, D.
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because I still love you.
&& pretending I dont hurts more than you'll ever know.

[EDIT// added a couplve days worth of updates, including a pic of my new TonguePiercing- just scroll downnn ;D]
hi.

am in the midst of striving to regain all form of normality possible POST pregnancyprank, so dont expect any mention of it in the following post- shall dismiss everything && get straiiiight to the updates ;P
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10/4/2009
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only managed to nab a petty 1hour sleep the night before, as I was on the phone from midnight right on through. was in a total daze when I 'wokeup' at 7am. it was a holiday for SriKL so didnt have school, but was restless as hell so couldnt sleepin! hopped into the backseat and had dimsum for brekkie with cally, alyssa, DJandy and DJCirion at 7am. went over to DJ Andy's for a couplve hours after and was home a little after lunch.
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ethanbaby, who brushed his teeth while I put on my mascara ;P
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was supposed to go Barclub later at night but daddy for the FIRSTFUCKINGTIME IN THE LAST 6MONTHS said NO to me goingout. his reason? " Its Holyweek. and GoodFriday tomorrow- have you no respect for your religion ah girl?! " -_- was MIFFEDLIKEFUCK and went with my first insticts without hesitance: ate ham sandwich after ham sandwich(no meat on GoodFriday!) just to spite daddy. felt daaaaaamn fucking immature and rotten so eventually came to my senses and calmeddown. couldnt see sueanne amoigeram(who was down in Msia again!) as she was tied up with prayers so talked to her on the phone for a few hours instead. went to bed at 3am.
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11/3/2009
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I for the firsttime in forever, did absolutely NOTHING the entireday. trying to slowdown MAY be a conscious decision Ive made and plan to stick to, but sigh. Im so not used to doing nothing okay!
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12/3/2009
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was on the phone till 4am the nightbefore, so the lastthing I needed was my fam suddenly prioritizing mass but attended the 8.30am one without protest. besides, my bodys so used to sleepdeprivation already Im somewhat trained to run on little, to even no sleep -_- went to AuntIvys for a fam lunch and POOF! went my diet. ate till I couldnt breathe and spent the majority of the time there chatting nonsense with nic, who was back from NS for a week. bummed the restve the day away.
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yummeh mini chocolate eastereggs
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13/3/2009
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had left my Armani wallet in school on Thursday(and michael attempted to breakin class Saturday morning but to no avail ]:) so practically RAN all the way to class to retrieve it despite the fact assembly had already begun. fuck assembly man, my EVERYTHING is in the wallet kay! had to sit at the basketball court along with all the other latecomers. was bored outta my mind! but the restve the day was soso. gotta make it a point to make it up to the boys for FFking them for Barce lastthursday ;P a certainsomeone was being a complete negligent asshole so was emo the whole day :( it led me to breaking my NoCarbDiet and BINGING on McDs for lunch with tija strawberry bigspenderr! grr. ahmazing how I managed to consume a total of 15burgers the past 3weeks O.O tuition was cancelled and revelled in it as I didnt touch my homework, heh!
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went for dinner at WaffleWorld in Pyramid with cally and waikit around 7pm.

was accident-phobic the entire drive home but fortunately a repetition of what happened the LASTTIME I was in waikits car DIDNT occur ;D was home early at 10.30pm.
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14/4/2009
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was a hol for SriKLians so slept in like a piglet till late in the afternoon. went for my 2nd PrivateMathTuition session at shalenes and hungaround, chatting about FatOrganutanBabies & SundayschoolPolitics over our tehais's at the neighborhood Cafe for about an hour before going home. stuck to my study schedule and practiced math before talking to cally on the phone. was online talking to calista and ameliababelia till 3am before calling it a niiiight.
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15/4/2009
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offially initiated my NoCarbDiet today!
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byebye bread/mee/potatoes/rice for a fullmonth. sugarfreetea/water to detox, veggie and heaps of protein all the way. not a crumb inbetween the 3meals a day either for the next 2months. I am DETERMINED to hit my goalweight of 35kg, not because Im one of those typical cliche teens who think Im fat but because I simply want to feel better about myself. so am keeping strong! (;
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seeing as Im the ONLY unathletic one outtve the lot, school felt weird without my darlings who were all at the stadium. was with calista most of the dayyy. went for Cyrens cheertraining during coco at the gym but decided it wasnt for me after the first 10mins, sorry babes :/ I miss cheerleading like fuck but I dont think I can push myself all over again. killed time at CareerGuidanceClub instead till the bell went. talked to dionne, cally and michael before konging at 1am.
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16/4/2009
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spent majority of the day with calista darlingg (: had to sit through this hour&a half talk by this dutch guy who spoke about ' Attention ' or someshit like that. tres ironic cause kellie aunntie and I didnt pay attention AT all throughout the thing ;P day was sosoooo- TIJA OIIII, YOUR MAONI MISSES YOU!
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fought with the 'rents at night:
mom: *after lecture* sometimes naomi I wonder right, whether you have bloody brains! do you?
me: ...
mom: answer me, naomi!
me: *in most politetone I can manage* yes, mom.
mom: *continues SPM-is-near-lecture* DO THOSE BRAINS WORK? cause I doubt they do at the rate youre handling things!
me: *biteslip again*
mom: NAOMI YOU BETTER ANSWER ME. what is so difficult about opening your mouth and ANSWERING HUH?!
me: .. *contains anger*
mom: NAOMI PAIGE HON. ANSWER ME NOW. BEFORE I LOSE MY TEMPER AH, GIRL! ANSWER.ME.
me: .. yorh.
mom: still no answer!
me: OHYMYGAWD LAH MOM. YES I have brains. YES Im aware SPM is nearby. YES my brains WORK! yorhhh!
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stayed there for an hour or so. bumped into way too many familiar faces, and the music for some reason wasnt as bad, haha. the highlight of the night was def jiarong tho, who was an utter manisheart!- he treated me to tequilashots, cigarettes, comforted me over a certain negligantBASTARD and when my other group of friends kept pestering me to join them at Barce, he WALKED me all the way there from MOS (: and walked back alone :S reached Barce around 1.30am, and was with cally, cassidy, plus more familiarfaces till lastcall. Yumcha'd at a mamak nearby with DJsirion, Cj etc. weijun and freddie picked us up after and Yumcha'd again at Canaicafe. was hommme by 6am, and I talk to cally and calista before konging half an hour later.
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17/4/2009
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HAPPY SEXY TIJUHBELAS-th, nat kacang (:

you were honestly the only person whose advice I swallowed back when I hit rockbottom lastyear, yknw. get your ass back down in Msia quick, I miss you!
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got up abruptly at 7am. had JUST snuggled under my covers, and rested my spinning head when daddy starts like, attempting to bang my roomdoor down! was so frustratingly tired I was in tears, rushing thru my morning shower+routine in a frenzy:( simply could not fathom why theyd go back on their promise of letting me sleepin like that. EVIL OKAY! was running on less than halfanhour of sleep.
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chatted freeperiod away with farahA in the library, and metup with calista, sam and her friend nicol at AC afterschool. thankyou babe for coming to meet me for lunch despite the fact you just wokeup! ;P tija strawberry bigspenderr dropped over the oreocheesecake her sis baked for me and was so touched! calista went for cheerprac while I chatted with nicol in the canteen. yelled and giggled over AHEMS with katherine and sucelia for abit before heading home at 3pm. rubesh and his friend cameover to chat for about an hour over cigs out on the patio, and left around 10ishpm. was so damn tired later at night I actually fell asleep sitting upright at 2am!
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18/4/2009
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woke up grrogy like hell at 3pm. mom ajaks to followsuit on her Appointment in Bangsar, so were both outta the house half an hour later. the Alfa was low on petrol again but thankfully we didnt have to go through a repitition of the petroldilemma(where neither mom or me knew how to OPEN the petrolthing and this bangladesh guy stalked us).
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got my eyebrows done, and chatted abit over cigs&icecream at BaskinRobbins before making our way to my salon, ShawnCutler. we spend a total of 3hours there- didnt plan on making any drastic changes as I love the way my hair looks now, so got it treated and layered. THERE WAS THIS STYLIST WHO WAS AN EXBOYF LOOKALIKE OMG- couldnt take my eyes off him the entiretime o.o while the usual shampooboy asked " hows your boyfriend? " THREEBLOODYTIMES, irritating me as usual, the stylists kept asking mom whether they could be her 'sons.' tres weird but I still loveLOVE ShawnCutler ;D
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bought Delicious for dinner, and went straight home. sorry cally for not being able to sleepover at your place! waitlah, when we both eventually get our licenses noone will be ' too tired ' to send us here or there. -_- talked to cally, natloo and calista till 4am. Heartbreak season y'all.
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19/4/2009
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no sundayschool as us Seniors were assigned to be ' helpers' to primaryschool sundayschoolteachers instead. was late so ran in my wedges scrambing all over the place before finding the teacher I was assigned to. helped out with this Standard2 class and omgawd, fell in love with the kids! fucking ahdorable. heart melted particularly when they greeted " Goodmorning teacher Naomi " and laughed my ass off when they mistakenly reffered to me as " Mrs.Naomi " haha. am seriously considering helping out parttime after SPM (:
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changed, and spent an hour chitchatting at Starbucks over fraps with natloo, eric and surin for an hour or so.


Chinesedaddys + Eurasianmoms= being hot is in our fcking blood (;
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keith picked us up, and was at Pyramid by 1.30pm. planned on eating a heavy lunch but was too nervous to, so only managed to swallow 2bites from natloos sandwhich at Subway. calista, nicol and ketshun meet us there, and we book tickets for Passenger. called jiarong earlier to ajak him but he said he was working. so when I saw him working as the ticketguy I burst out laughing, damn ironic kay ;P
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after eyeing a cute waiter at KimGarys, I decided to FUCKIT and get my tonguepiercing over and donewith.

had been planning it for weeks and was shaking but dismissed all negativity running through my paranoid brain. got it done at " SoWhat," this tinyshop in AsianAvenue as all my friends got theirs done there and suggested it. thankyou calista darling for holding my hand- thought I was going to passout mygawd. fucking estatic I finally got it done!
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went to join the boys at the SnookerArea for abit before heading hommme. couldnt eat/talk on the phone/sing/do ANYTHING so slept immensely eary at like 11pm right after watching(and tearing up to)Premonition on telly.


calista, me, natloo, nicol.
*more pics to come
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... its 6:03pm now and Im supposed to have PrivateMathTuition at shalenes but the teacher cancelled it. its been 2fulldays since Ive consumed anything proper and Im so hungry the icecubes Ive been continuosly suckingon has begun to miraculously taste like pizza/KFC/chocolate- am so hungry Im going delusional mkay! temporarily switched to a Detox diet(which consists of nothing but greentea+fruits) till Im able to continue my NoCarb diet. tija strawberry bigspenderr has been a darl, she dropped off a pinkslurpee for me earlier at school today;D I'll suffer for the next week or so but I know it'll all be worthit so am prepared! just wish my tongue would hurry the fuck up and heal already, grr! goodbyyyye people (:

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I swear our chant is crashing in my mind
you can hold on but;
I wouldn't waste your time♥

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5:25pm, april 13th 2009
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NOT, I repeat, NOT PREGGERS.
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why pretend the pregnancyscare(when in reality Im still a virgin for gods sake) outtve ALL things in the world? 1)because sueanne amoigeram and I was laughing nonstop at the mere thought of the bothve us getting preggers/hitched online lastnight so we on a whim, decided to conjoin forces to pull the same prank- did noone notice the fact we both SOHAPPEN to be preggers at the same time? 2)as a highly personal favor to a closefriend.
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I truly apologize to those of you who got so concerned the wholve lastnight as well as today. Im aware that it was the furthest thing from funny. and that after the whole charade its made me look like an utter idiot/attentionseeker but WHO THE FUCK CARES. it was so fucking funny at first, but toward the end omgawd I still feel the guilt pangs. Im sorry, again ! :/
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to the spammers btw? fuck you. Im sure you stupidfucks got a helluva kick outtve spreading the 'news' but boohoo, your fun ends here. it was a hoax. as usual you fucks prove time and time again how low people can stoop, judging me and everything I stand for based on pety lines from a blog. thankyou tho, for contributing to the cash I make from this blog (; haha.
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shouldve thought this one out more but ohwell. happy.. belated aprilfools? gah. sorry again loves. going Yumcha now, expect posts to regain normality soon (: sorry again, goodniiiiight!
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yknow, if I were to be completely honest and tear down this veneered facade Ive been putting up lately, things have not been well at all. for the past 4months or so, Ive dealt with my issues by going at it hard with my girls having latenightsout but only recently have I tried putting a halt to this somewhat self-destructive habit. I absolutely love my clubbingnights but nowadays its become my replacement drug. Ive been putting off dealing with so many goddamn things theyve begun to pileup, and now that I havent had a latenightout or a fix in 2weeks the weight of it all is killing me. mm.
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3/4/2009
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tija strawberry bigspender and I got permission to watch the DramaCompetition pre-lim round first thing in the morning. as the bothve us generally have quite a number of freeperiods everyday, we thought of watching the plays rather than get ourselves into the usual mischief around school. mr.tans office is like this TINY ASS cubicle in the teachersroom so was withholding my laughter the entire time ;P couldnt help but feel this ping of nostalgia hook right onto my gut watching the plays in the auditorium, sigh. 5Beta seriously shouldve put more effort into getting our scripts ready in time.
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I miss it all; the script memorising, the practices afterschoolhours, the costumes, the everything argh. but ohwell. the memories that came with being a partve the DramaCompetition lastyear ;;

.. are fond enough, I suppose (: this was us during a practice in '08.
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went to AC afterschool with tija, jean-ni, farah etc and bummed the afternoon away when I got back. about an hour before the designatedtime to get dressed for Barclub with cally, mom cuts in on my tellytime and tells me shes taking me shopping the nextday. daddy comes in almost immidiately after and strangely agrees on driving me out in the dead of the night for my Ramliburger. bonded with him throughout the entire time and ohmygawd, I felt so bad I decided not to go in the end. I mean, would you have the heart to if you were me? :/ sorry again tho babe!X X
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4/4/2009
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HAPPY SEXY TUJUHBELAS-th, ka kit grandma kitkat (:

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wokeup early around noon and mom and I setout for a fullday of mother-daughter shopping. our excitement was KILLED halfway through tho, as the Alfa didnt have gas and mom didnt know how to pump petrol into it! it was quite a sight, the two of us in our wedges scrambling around the car looking for the 'petrolpump' button- I even resorted to pressing SCREWS and things that RESEMBLED buttons like an idiot one too many times. had no choice but to drive ALL THE WAY HOME just to ask daddy how to pump petrol, and returned to the gasstation the 2nd timeround ;P
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had lunch at Kikuzakura. my fams a regular there, so was hesitant before smoking as the waitresses we know sooo know Im still in highschool but I didnt care. mom didnt care either but she kept asking me to " keep the cigarette low " as if noone would see if I were to be all secretive about it -_- shopped for a few hours and was hommmme by 7pm.

its been a solid 6months or so since mom and I have bonded in such a manner so I seriously had fun (: plus the 1K we blew together wasnt bad either (; haha. had been texting the wholeday, but fell asleep midway looking like a loon clutching my cellphone at 2am.
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went for the 8.30am mass(its been a year since Ive attended mass! o.o) and then sundayschool where it was a yawnfest, as usual. the only funny bit was when this nun attempted to take our pictures, damn scary haha. the fam and I had lunch at SubangParade after. talked to michael and dan till 3am and kongedddd.
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randomconvo during lunch,
me: daddy, whats peking plumjuice? nice ah?
daddy: not bad what.
me: YERH. YEAHHHH RIGHT LAH DUCKJUICE NICE. I KNEW youd purposely wan, daddy.
daddy: duckjuice?!
me: well, yeah. isnt it Peking plumjuice? like Peking duck. disgustinggg!
mom: naomi, peking is in China lah. anything from there has the word ' Peking' in it.
me: .. thought it was some.. chineseword..
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6/4/2009
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only blogworthty mo's of the day in school? tija and I ordered McDs for lunch(Ive been eating a burger every.single.day for the past week, no joke) and writing a note for michael on his desk for kicks. switched math tutors recently as I coulnt BEAR to sit thru Mr.D's class anymore- he PACES back and forth and clucks his tongue cause hes impatient, and makes absolutely NO smalltalk at all thruought the class. I know tuiton is anything but playtime but he pressures me so much Ive come to despise his classes. had my first privatemath session at Shalene's with this newteacher from KDU at around 6pm and omgawd, this teachers sooo much better. I lovvvve class now ;D talked to michael till 1ish. crazy how fucking early I sleep nowadays!
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was with ketshun majority of the day. there was a tres awkward moment Id rather DIE than go into but mm, that boy and I share more secrets than youd imagine. it was DramaCompetition finals but only managed to catch the last 2plays or so with hanis. sat next to an UNNAMED form 5-er in the auditorium and almost died, his breath stank like noones business. got into quite a heavyconvo toward the last period or so talking to her- still blows my mind how we can share secrets after everything lastyear but Im happy nonetheless (: talked to simson, weijun and michael till 3am.
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8/4/2009
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skippedschool, so was dressed and out the door by 1pm.

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stopped by moms office nearby to pickup cash and waited around chatting nonsense with waikit at Nathans for about an hour. so odd going there in the day! haha. picked cally up, then headed down to MidV where the first thing we did;

.. was have lunch at Amani. almost fucking dieeeed eating the food man. even the real thaifood I ate in Thailand 2years back wasnt as spicy okay o.o


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... its 3:30am as I type this. yes, technically its already tomorrow but fuckthat, I like keeping my posts organized ;P just got off the phone with callyyyy. was supposed to watch Fast&Furious4 at pyramid with tija afterschool but GUESS what happened lah. GUESS. after my shower and lunch, I KONGED AT 5PM AND SLEPT THRU MY FUCKING ALARM TILL MIDNIGHT. so BYEBYE movie. BYEBYE Barce with the SriKL boys motherfuckingtiuuu. Im still pissed but slowly letting it go cause its pissing me off the more I think about it, URGH. heartbroken, emotional, and frustrated like fuck. dont know how Im sleeping tonight, mm. no school tmr, and I think the boys are picking me up at 7am tomorrow, CRAAAAP. goodniiiiight people.
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pp/s: Im falling for you and I wish I wasnt.
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hello.

my apologies for the lack of updates, loves- been lazier than usual ;O hahha. made it a point to sit my ass down tonight and update before I have to backtrack on even more things tho, so here we goooo (;
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daddy decided to go back to work again on friday(yes, decided -_-) so kissed him sending/picking my brothers and I to/from school goodbye :( had no choice but to take the bus to school in the morning. the busdriver arrived at fucking 6.25am! sure waking up half an hour earlier than usual was a total and complete bitch, but the ONE AND A HALF HOUR trip there was sheer HELL. schools a mere 10mins away but we only get off the bumpyass thing at 7.40am kay! fortunately, the rest of the day was a total contrast to the busride- tija strawberry bigspenderr and I spent the majority of the day rolling about behind the bookcases in the library laughing and screaming, being our usual selves (: lunch that day sucked but mior was nice enough to come all the way to SriKL bearing indomee&maggigoreng for us ;D heehee.
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24/3/2009
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skipped school cause I (intentionally-SHH!)overslept and missed the bus. this Fengshui master came to the house and performed an exorcism thing on mom later at night- 'rents had been keeping it a secret but moms been seeing weirdshit around the house o.o mom elaborated every detail after they left- was completely thrown offguard and freaked out like fuck by the end of it! was on the phone with michaelsmokes and wei jun till about 4.30am after.
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25/3/2009
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'rents found an alternate transport for me to school- tagging along with my little brothers van. HALLELUJAH much. kyle and ethanbaby go to SriSedaya tho, so was so thankful their vandriver(who totally looks like my fam's old contractor HAHAHA) agreed to be my transport. was smiiiiling from the time I wokeup at my NORMAL time of 6.40am and thruought the 10-15minute ride to school ;p sportspractice was pretty fun despite it being held at the dreaded SS15field. apek were manishearts so tija and I got to eat our indomee&maggimee AGAIN ;D funniest part of the entireday? seeing michael- who shaved off his moustache for me HAHAHA. talked to him till 4am again.
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26/3/2009
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skipped school cause my throat and fever were killing me- if youre an avidreader youd notice how I have this tendency to get sick atleast once every month! :/ bummed about but couldnt do much cause it was raining so heavily allday. got my kicks from boo-ing my maid(whos hella freaked out over the exorcism thing) every so often HAHA. eviiiil but we all do it, no (; passed up zhengwei and callys offer to MOS and Barclub cause I still felt like shit. talked to michael till 2am before konging.
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27/3/2009
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mrs.v was so FUCKING ahnoying during english I gaveup on talkingback and blocked her off completely. Id give her a dead expression everytime she screamed at me. imagine being the ONLY one shes harping on for an essay THE ENTIRE CLASS didnt do! fucking grandma, yeesh. during break learned that Im officially the ONLY singleton outta the 5of us ;P I love how happy my girls are tho, so its okaaaay. not like Im ready for a relationship anyhoo. congrats darlings, ILY all so much! (: had a smoke with a GUARD at the staircase with the usual bunch, and spent the last couplve periods chatting nonsense with jean-ni and michael at the canteen before setting out for lunch at BurgerKing with tija and ketshun afterschool. was on the phone to simson, cally and dan till 5am.
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28/3/2009
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HAPPY LAPANBELAS-th, cassandre nicole narcis (:

I love how we still have that bond after everything weve gone thru growingup together! favorite &closest cousin, hands down (: LY babe.
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woke up at 6.30am despite it being a saturday to watch my brothers sportsday at SriSedaya.
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it was nice watching ethanbaby march but the majority of the morning was so boring! nasilemak and jasonV kept me occupied tho (: went for Reportcardday straight after and mrs.V of all people in the world was seated right next to my class teacher. stupid cunt made me look so damn bad I wanted to CHOKE her. she even told tija's mom Im a ' bad influence ' on tija kay! thankfully my percentage was average and I got #13 in class. 'rents know how valsala is like so they nonchalently passedoff all remarks, thankgawd. still, its motherfcking war from here on out. no.fucking.joke.
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got home, showered, and went over to wai kit's with cally. took our own sweettime playing a fool and getting dressed. I stil think BOTH your evil weighingmachines are and LYING, waikit! ;P

spot the tinygirl with the straightener!

fucking overgrown bangs- cant be bothered to maintain. like I said- its so LASTMONTH. pathetic how everyones NOW getting into the trend. especially around school (;



cally darlinggg

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had dinner at StationOne before entering MOS at 11ish pm. was in there for a total of TENMINUTES before getting irritated at the emptycrowd and going out kay!

emica babibudyy




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CJ took a helluva longtime to arrive from KL but he savvvved us. headed to Barclub. no pictures from Barclub like lasttime cause we were too lazy to get our clutches from behind the DJbooth, but was with cally, alyssa, yongshern, DJsirion and CJ. bumped into samchiew, casey, cassidy, apek, ahhoong, and darrenkhoo. kissed a certain familiarsomeone and got instant flashbacks to back before the two of us stopped talking, back to the very firsttime we met all those months ago. its weird how Im always so damn comfortable around him. was smiling like an IDIOT the rest of the night cause it felt so good to be on normalterms, to be kissing him, feeling the way I do again (: haha.
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Yumcha'd at a mamak(where my cam got hijacked) nearby before going over to DJ Andy's.

HAHAHAHAHA



HAAHAHAHA

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LAUGHED SO DAMN HARD THRUOUGHT THE RIDE HOME omg ;P was home by 7.30am, and konged at 8am. memorable mo's: scarybrokenglass, pee in sink YUCK, xrated talk, redeyed zombies!, japanese prostitiute house HAHHAA, 'gaygay', fartingdogs
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29/3/2009
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ONLY GOT 45MINUTES OF SLEEP. took a hastyshower and got dressed for sundayschool. was still stoned so didnt utter a word to anyone till class ended. had lunch with daddy and thebrothers at Wendys after before visiting mom at her office and eventually going home at 1.30pm. napped for 3hours before waking up to shalene's call- she ajaked to go Jungletrekking and as exhausted as I was I couldnt say no! imagine NaomiPaigeHon bloody jungletrekking mygawd ;P have never gone before! was out the door by 4pm.

swear I cant remember the lasttime I used them
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was with shalene, shannon(whom I havent seen in ages!) and kane. shalenes mom and youngcousins followed with and omgawd the walk up GasingHill was exhausting! I am in such badshape you have noclue. after completing the trek the four of us walked to Rajuus for fun. right after finishing our tose's shannon realises he left his backpack in the JUNGLE. we take no hesitance to decide on.. going back in the jungle for a SECONDround ;P didnt care that it was raining cause hell- we were already wet and muddy!
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and so we left our cellphones in the car and bravely re-entered the jungle, only the four of us this time. chatted nonsense the whole way thru, talking about everything from whore-ish exes, being ' rojak bubbles poyo,' excrushes, babihutans && the good ol'days when the entire 6pm session got into all sorts of trouble around the neighborhood. the way back down was UNFORGETTABLE tho- our cellphones DIED, we were confused between tracks, and the deeper we ventured, the darker it got! us 4dungus held hands majority of the way back cause we kept slipping in the mud, and also because it got so scary! fuuuh, unfuckingforgettable (: eventually got out by 7ish pm, and was home by 7.15m.
*pictures with kane
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30/3/2009
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dont know why, but ate like a complete pig from the moment I woke up. had fruitcake+ EXTRA DONUTS for brekkie, ordered McDs for lunch instead of sucky canteenfood, and had TWOround of rice for dinner -_- fuck the diet man. only interesting partsve of the day was when this black FROG went wild in class during maths period and lepaking on the staircase with tija, michael, ketshun, imran and joanne. busted my ass doing my HOMEWORK(cant remember the lasttime I did it kay) for 2hours and talked to cally before konging at 2am.
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31/3/2009(today)
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was so sad noone could send tija and I KFC for lunch, sob :( realised Im unconciously starting to seriously pay attention in class now o.o even tijas amazed haha. spent addmath chatting to hanis and the last couplve periods with farah in the library. itsssss 9:14pm now and I guess I should get going- gotta stick to my studyschedule so Ill have time for those latenight phonecalls later! (: goodniiiight people.
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everytime I turnaround to leave;
I feel my heart begin to burst &bleed
so desperately I try to link it back to my head
but it pulls me back to my knees
can you tell; you weigh right thru me?♥

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p/s: youre just a temporary fix. Im sorry, but youre no him.
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